A crazy tornado touched down in Billings and ripped up what is arguably one of the worst event arenas of all time. The acoustics have always been terrible, and there were many other things wrong with it, including extreme ugliness.

It hopped up the street and decimated some businesses, and then it was gone. It was less than a mile from my house, and I’m VERY glad we escaped with only hail damage.

Perhaps the most amazing thing about this tornado is the fact that it hit an event arena that had no event going on that day, had only one employee on site, hit the busiest street in MT, and killed no one.

We are all alive. Tornados happen sometimes way west of the city, or far north, but to touch down in the middle of the city was extremely bizarre. I hope we don’t have any more of it.

Flooding was severe and disgusting. You could have gone out in a canoe in some places, but you wouldn’t want to.

My friend Joe is shipping out for Afghanistan on Friday. But before he leaves, the Army is making his unit get on a BUS and spent like 24 hours on it to go to Texas. They will then deploy from Texas and spend something like 48 hours traveling. Idiocy. I am going to miss Joe, and I was happy to see him, and I hope he comes home safely. Fare thee well!

I’m about ready for a trip out of here, otherwise, I feel that I shall go mad. Probably not in a good way.

Eddie Izzard, who has got to be at least in my top five favorite Brits, commented once that the American Dream is to take all the money in the world, stick it in your ears, and go “Tbbbbbbppppttt!” Razzberry!

I love it. I am now visualizing 4-5 times per day that I am rolling around in piles of money, and so happy I can’t even stand it, so I go and give some money away to someone. I laugh and enjoy life.

Money is not everything. It solves a lot of problems though. I would like some piles of it. The Secret says that if I imagine, so it must be returned to me, so I’m working on that. I suggest everyone do the same, not for me, for yourselves, or whatever you want in your life.

Let me know how it works out. I hope the Universe has speedy delivery on this package.

The world is a most convincing illusion. I am certain, or I want to be, that this is a giant university for all of us to learn, to create, to play in, before we move onto the next thing.

The world as a university is so challenging at times, that sometimes I feel like I’m failing my classes. It’s really easy to choose happiness when you don’t have to interact with negative others. It’s easy to choose to create harmony when you’re feeling well to begin with.

It’s not so easy when you’ve got less than pleasant people in your environment, and when the situation is miserable. I feel I am in a situation where I’m being tested, and yet I’m not sure what exactly I’m being tested on, or what the instructions are. I know, that for the first time in many years, I have truly felt hate welling up inside me. Not just anger, absolute loathing. This is not a situation where hate is actually love in disguise. It’s a situation where I was victimized. I went to the appropriate people. I’m asking for help. The bad guys in this situation seem to be winning. Unless I can stop feeling anything negative about this situation, they’re going to win. I think a part of me helped create this situation. I wasn’t fond of these people to begin with. They’ve done a lot of wrong, and gotten away with it. I had definite feelings about that. Now I’m in the situation where so many others have been. I’m hoping, that this time, something will be different. It will have been worth it for that.

I want to believe so much right now that the universe is on my side, and that there are still people in the world who will do a kindness for no reason, who won’t sell out, and who will try their best-not to be perfect, but to be true to themselves. I want to believe that there is a miracle on the way for me. I want to believe there is a benevolent being watching out for me, that will comfort my aching heart and heal my wounds. If I want it, I have to focus on it.

The Law of Attraction isn’t everything. It’s only the primer. There are laws beyond it.

I think my test instructions are to love my neighbors, even if they are horrid. So basic, and yet sometimes, so difficult.

Fallen off the zen pouf again I have. Must climb back on.