Terry Pratchett always writes about the witches in his stories being on the edges of things. That’s what makes them witches. They’re always living in the in between.

I am in one of those in between times, although I’m not sure that makes me a witch. I sure feel like one.

Two women I work with who are exceedingly rude to everyone finally got exceedingly rude to me. More so than usual. I’ve been surviving by killing them with kindness for a year.

I thought about it. Then I filed a report. I basically just signed my death warrant at work. I don’t care. I’m tired of it. The job I started is not the job I have now. The job I have now is stressful, impossible to get done in the time they pay me for, and keeps getting increasingly complicated. My  Executive Director is leaving….and that tells me which way the wind is blowing for the contract we have with the state. I do my job, but I don’t care too much about it anymore. I’m grateful to have a job, but I’m feeling like nothing I do there is meaningful anymore. I want to dive into private practice. I figure if otm gonna go, I’m going to get one in for the other people who’ve been screwed around by these two nasties.

Sweet Donnie and I just had our one year anniversary-for being married anyway. It was a great day! We lounged around, ate awesome food, and enjoyed each other’s company. He dug up a good part of the yard for me so I can landscape.

Wendy and Mike are about 3 weeks away from being married, and are soon to find out the sex of their baby.

Kristi and Aric  are having a struggle with Mr. Fuss, and if I personally knew where Mr. Fuss was, I would go find his burned out, coked up ass and get him to do what he is supposed to be doing with their console, as well as fork over some money. I would like to kick his ass. But he keeps running away. Damnit!

Edges are sometimes good. Sometimes not. But when you’re standing on an edge, there’s a point of no return when you step off. I think I’m awfully close to that. Not in a bad way-just there. I feel less scared than I would have before. I have rope-and I’m taking my red Swingline stapler with me.

Oh. I also have a whistle. I’m not afraid to use it.

Ok, yesterday the weather behaved more appropriately for spring in MT, with a light snow, but really, I’m ready for the warm weather to come back. 30 degrees in May just sucks, even if it is “normal.” I heard horror stories of the 1970’s when it snowed on the 4th of July and people were shoveling off their rooftops at the end of May.

NO.

If it starts behaving that way consistently, a move will be imminent. I can’t stand it!

More nightmares about work… I feel that I should attempt to charge overtime for the fact that I am creatively dreaming about all the things that are wrong. I FEEL as though I’ve been at work the whole time. I believe I probably need a vacation.

Vacation….I am in the mood for taking a few days and going to visit De Seestor and Aric. I want to give it about 6 weeks, because after the hCG treatment, I’m going to need all new clothes (YAY), and I will find much better shopping in Denver than here. It’s either that or a flight to Vegas, where I could spend ALL my time shopping and never even play in the casino. Sometimes, such as now, I really miss living there.

If anyone wants to find out more about the hCG treatment, you can go online and find Dr. Simeons’s book Pounds and Inches. I am in process of reading it, and it’s the smartest thing I’ve ever read about weight gain and loss. The doctor posits that in order for a weight loss plan to be effective, it must work for males and females, get measureable and consistent results, and be maintainable. This plan is all of these things. If you look at FDA studies though, you’ll find some inconsistent results-what those studies have in common is that the people did not follow the diet plan. What’s great about this is that it’s for anyone. Maybe you want to lose 20-30 pounds, or you want to lose 50+. The plan can be repeated. So, even people who are morbidly obese can benefit from this plan, and it is far less intrusive and expensive than gastric bypass. Also, since the cause of the obesity is considered a hypothalamus issue, it takes away the “it’s your fault” and the guilt factor. Sure, most people could eat better, but for people who have tried diet and exercise and failed, this is a great plan, because this ONLY removes the Abnormal Fat, rather than the Structural Fat and the Normal Fat that you NEED. Therefore, there’s no loose skin and sagging afterwards, because the rest of the fat you need to hold your muscles and organs in place. You’ll just be toned and good looking. This plan only requires moderate exercise, like a swim or a walk each day.

You can save a ton of money by ordering hCG online, and taking it in pill form, however, it is very important that you and your doctor have ruled out thyroid problems, adrenal problems, and MUST get a lab called CA 125. This is a Cancer Antigen test that measures the amount of CA cells in your bloodstream. hCG 25 can be harmful or helpful depending on what type of cancer you might have, but if you have cancer, you should not do this treatment without the supervision of a medical doctor.

Good luck!

The winds are gusting up to 60 mph outside. This is inappropriate. If I knew how to discipline the weather, I would.  

The wind speed is also matching the speed at which things are changing at work.

I know it’s supposed to be technically a good thing to do or believe 10 impossible things before breakfast, but what if you’re asked to do 20 impossible things, and then told if you don’t, you will basically lose your head? The other behavioral health person and I are glad the windows don’t open up here, because between this work stuff and the wind, its enough to make a person want to drop something heavy out the window to relieve stress, preferably not the actual person.

I will listen to Dr. Horrible. I will do the best I can. But I’m reminded that Penny, who tried to do her best, was the one that got killed in the end.

Dr. Horrible’s Sing Along Blog is one of the finest things in creation.

I have watched it multiple times, and it has not ceased to be funny. In fact, it becomes exponentially more funny each time I watch it.

It makes me very happy to listen to it at work. My co-worker pays no attention to the words, she just likes the tunes.

If you don’t like this show, then you need your head examined. Go watch it!