I should mention that Sweet Donnie was the purchaser of the Nook and the PanDigital thingy. I don’t know why I think of it as a thingy. I just do. Thank you Donnie! Love you husband!

It is my brother’s birthday. Happy Birthday Greg! Love you brother!

Tomorrow is my Mother-in-Law’s Birthday. Happy Birthday Joyce! Love you!

And thus, we enter birthday season, for I have many friends who are also Leos and also on that Virgo cusp. Love you friends!

Wendy and Mike think they have named baby. I was thinking Piper Aria, but it has been reversed, and is now Aria Piper. Either way, I love it. I keep calling her my little Pip, and I can also call her Ari for short. Love you Wendy and Mike and Pip!

Love De Seestor!

Love You.

Today I realized that it has been far too long since I’ve done certain things.

It’s been way too long since I looked at Mr. Neil’s site. www.neilgaiman.com.

Spending 5 minutes on that made me feel better.

In the meantime, post-tornado, I did go out of town, it did keep my head from exploding, I did a bit of writing, and enjoyed the beautiful atmosphere of Boulder Hotsprings. The suite that I wanted became available at the very last minute, so that all worked out perfectly. I also visited Nurse Paula’s gorgeous ranch, and was introduced to all her goats, horses, peacocks, dogs, cats, and an accidental snake. There was a goat named Little Bonnie that I dubbed LB, and it seems to have stuck. That goat leapt all over me like a big dog does when it’s happy to see you. It was hilarious.

I’m not even going to comment about work. I was hired by another agency, but turned them down on the basis that they wanted me to work for peanuts, and I can’t do that. The search, and private practice, and writing will continue.

I have had an opportunity to review some pretty spectacular technology lately. The iPad  is awesome. It’s as cool as the iPod, but of course with the larger screen. It’s great for surfing, typing if necessary, gaming, music, and reading. We are very happy with ours-a wonderful belated wedding gift. THANK YOU!

I wound up with a Nook instead of a Kindle. I initially thought I would like the Kindle better, but after holding each, and realizing I didn’t like the keypad buttons at the bottom of the Kindle, I went with the Nook. I think the Nook is better for people who entirely prefer touchscreen, as with the iPod and iPad. In my mind, Kindle is for people who like to type on their Blackberry. I’m a Droid girl myself.

We also got a PanDigital, which is a digital book reader. It is heavier than both the Kindle and the Nook, and the screen is not as easy to read in the daylight-it provides its own light. However, it is much better at night due to its internal lighting. It is also entirely touchscreen. Not a bad deal, and available at Bed Bath and Beyond.

Terribly disappointed with The Last Airbender movie. Shymalan is a really good writer and director-I don’t know what the hell happened here. The cartoon is wonderful and entertaining, and really didn’t need much changed to it to make the story go as a movie. All the special effects needed to be about 2-3x faster than they were, the editing needed to flow-it was quite choppy, and they did very little character development. The end result was a  movie that dragged along, making it so people didn’t really care much about the characters, and occasionally going, “WTF?” If I had not see the cartoon, I am not sure I would have liked it even remotely. So that was weird. The only way they can fix this is if they do a sequel, and make it clear through some exemplary writing and directing in the sequel that they MEANT to do that in the first one. That will take some doing.

Inception is great! It gave me nightmares, recalling things from the depths of my subconscious that were sunk long ago, but the Inception tsunami brought them to the surface. It is Matrix-like in its layers of reality, but moves along like a Bourne movie. A good combination. It moves and ends like a piece of literature, letting you decide some things for yourself. Students will write papers. =)

3D TV’s are coming out, and this makes me feel very happy.

Now, where is my Jetpack? We were promised Jetpacks! I am not entitled to one, like someone giving it to me. I am not a trustafarian. However, if I have trustafarian readers, I definitely want to be your friend. I just want to be able to motor around like they did on the Jetson’s. The jetpacks were all I liked about that show. Seriously. There might be something wrong with me because of that, but I don’t care.

I really do want a Jetpack, but since that’s not happening right now, I will settle for birthday presents, because that is happening pretty soon.

A crazy tornado touched down in Billings and ripped up what is arguably one of the worst event arenas of all time. The acoustics have always been terrible, and there were many other things wrong with it, including extreme ugliness.

It hopped up the street and decimated some businesses, and then it was gone. It was less than a mile from my house, and I’m VERY glad we escaped with only hail damage.

Perhaps the most amazing thing about this tornado is the fact that it hit an event arena that had no event going on that day, had only one employee on site, hit the busiest street in MT, and killed no one.

We are all alive. Tornados happen sometimes way west of the city, or far north, but to touch down in the middle of the city was extremely bizarre. I hope we don’t have any more of it.

Flooding was severe and disgusting. You could have gone out in a canoe in some places, but you wouldn’t want to.

My friend Joe is shipping out for Afghanistan on Friday. But before he leaves, the Army is making his unit get on a BUS and spent like 24 hours on it to go to Texas. They will then deploy from Texas and spend something like 48 hours traveling. Idiocy. I am going to miss Joe, and I was happy to see him, and I hope he comes home safely. Fare thee well!

I’m about ready for a trip out of here, otherwise, I feel that I shall go mad. Probably not in a good way.

Eddie Izzard, who has got to be at least in my top five favorite Brits, commented once that the American Dream is to take all the money in the world, stick it in your ears, and go “Tbbbbbbppppttt!” Razzberry!

I love it. I am now visualizing 4-5 times per day that I am rolling around in piles of money, and so happy I can’t even stand it, so I go and give some money away to someone. I laugh and enjoy life.

Money is not everything. It solves a lot of problems though. I would like some piles of it. The Secret says that if I imagine, so it must be returned to me, so I’m working on that. I suggest everyone do the same, not for me, for yourselves, or whatever you want in your life.

Let me know how it works out. I hope the Universe has speedy delivery on this package.

The world is a most convincing illusion. I am certain, or I want to be, that this is a giant university for all of us to learn, to create, to play in, before we move onto the next thing.

The world as a university is so challenging at times, that sometimes I feel like I’m failing my classes. It’s really easy to choose happiness when you don’t have to interact with negative others. It’s easy to choose to create harmony when you’re feeling well to begin with.

It’s not so easy when you’ve got less than pleasant people in your environment, and when the situation is miserable. I feel I am in a situation where I’m being tested, and yet I’m not sure what exactly I’m being tested on, or what the instructions are. I know, that for the first time in many years, I have truly felt hate welling up inside me. Not just anger, absolute loathing. This is not a situation where hate is actually love in disguise. It’s a situation where I was victimized. I went to the appropriate people. I’m asking for help. The bad guys in this situation seem to be winning. Unless I can stop feeling anything negative about this situation, they’re going to win. I think a part of me helped create this situation. I wasn’t fond of these people to begin with. They’ve done a lot of wrong, and gotten away with it. I had definite feelings about that. Now I’m in the situation where so many others have been. I’m hoping, that this time, something will be different. It will have been worth it for that.

I want to believe so much right now that the universe is on my side, and that there are still people in the world who will do a kindness for no reason, who won’t sell out, and who will try their best-not to be perfect, but to be true to themselves. I want to believe that there is a miracle on the way for me. I want to believe there is a benevolent being watching out for me, that will comfort my aching heart and heal my wounds. If I want it, I have to focus on it.

The Law of Attraction isn’t everything. It’s only the primer. There are laws beyond it.

I think my test instructions are to love my neighbors, even if they are horrid. So basic, and yet sometimes, so difficult.

Fallen off the zen pouf again I have. Must climb back on.

Terry Pratchett always writes about the witches in his stories being on the edges of things. That’s what makes them witches. They’re always living in the in between.

I am in one of those in between times, although I’m not sure that makes me a witch. I sure feel like one.

Two women I work with who are exceedingly rude to everyone finally got exceedingly rude to me. More so than usual. I’ve been surviving by killing them with kindness for a year.

I thought about it. Then I filed a report. I basically just signed my death warrant at work. I don’t care. I’m tired of it. The job I started is not the job I have now. The job I have now is stressful, impossible to get done in the time they pay me for, and keeps getting increasingly complicated. My  Executive Director is leaving….and that tells me which way the wind is blowing for the contract we have with the state. I do my job, but I don’t care too much about it anymore. I’m grateful to have a job, but I’m feeling like nothing I do there is meaningful anymore. I want to dive into private practice. I figure if otm gonna go, I’m going to get one in for the other people who’ve been screwed around by these two nasties.

Sweet Donnie and I just had our one year anniversary-for being married anyway. It was a great day! We lounged around, ate awesome food, and enjoyed each other’s company. He dug up a good part of the yard for me so I can landscape.

Wendy and Mike are about 3 weeks away from being married, and are soon to find out the sex of their baby.

Kristi and Aric  are having a struggle with Mr. Fuss, and if I personally knew where Mr. Fuss was, I would go find his burned out, coked up ass and get him to do what he is supposed to be doing with their console, as well as fork over some money. I would like to kick his ass. But he keeps running away. Damnit!

Edges are sometimes good. Sometimes not. But when you’re standing on an edge, there’s a point of no return when you step off. I think I’m awfully close to that. Not in a bad way-just there. I feel less scared than I would have before. I have rope-and I’m taking my red Swingline stapler with me.

Oh. I also have a whistle. I’m not afraid to use it.

Ok, yesterday the weather behaved more appropriately for spring in MT, with a light snow, but really, I’m ready for the warm weather to come back. 30 degrees in May just sucks, even if it is “normal.” I heard horror stories of the 1970’s when it snowed on the 4th of July and people were shoveling off their rooftops at the end of May.

NO.

If it starts behaving that way consistently, a move will be imminent. I can’t stand it!

More nightmares about work… I feel that I should attempt to charge overtime for the fact that I am creatively dreaming about all the things that are wrong. I FEEL as though I’ve been at work the whole time. I believe I probably need a vacation.

Vacation….I am in the mood for taking a few days and going to visit De Seestor and Aric. I want to give it about 6 weeks, because after the hCG treatment, I’m going to need all new clothes (YAY), and I will find much better shopping in Denver than here. It’s either that or a flight to Vegas, where I could spend ALL my time shopping and never even play in the casino. Sometimes, such as now, I really miss living there.

If anyone wants to find out more about the hCG treatment, you can go online and find Dr. Simeons’s book Pounds and Inches. I am in process of reading it, and it’s the smartest thing I’ve ever read about weight gain and loss. The doctor posits that in order for a weight loss plan to be effective, it must work for males and females, get measureable and consistent results, and be maintainable. This plan is all of these things. If you look at FDA studies though, you’ll find some inconsistent results-what those studies have in common is that the people did not follow the diet plan. What’s great about this is that it’s for anyone. Maybe you want to lose 20-30 pounds, or you want to lose 50+. The plan can be repeated. So, even people who are morbidly obese can benefit from this plan, and it is far less intrusive and expensive than gastric bypass. Also, since the cause of the obesity is considered a hypothalamus issue, it takes away the “it’s your fault” and the guilt factor. Sure, most people could eat better, but for people who have tried diet and exercise and failed, this is a great plan, because this ONLY removes the Abnormal Fat, rather than the Structural Fat and the Normal Fat that you NEED. Therefore, there’s no loose skin and sagging afterwards, because the rest of the fat you need to hold your muscles and organs in place. You’ll just be toned and good looking. This plan only requires moderate exercise, like a swim or a walk each day.

You can save a ton of money by ordering hCG online, and taking it in pill form, however, it is very important that you and your doctor have ruled out thyroid problems, adrenal problems, and MUST get a lab called CA 125. This is a Cancer Antigen test that measures the amount of CA cells in your bloodstream. hCG 25 can be harmful or helpful depending on what type of cancer you might have, but if you have cancer, you should not do this treatment without the supervision of a medical doctor.

Good luck!

The winds are gusting up to 60 mph outside. This is inappropriate. If I knew how to discipline the weather, I would.  

The wind speed is also matching the speed at which things are changing at work.

I know it’s supposed to be technically a good thing to do or believe 10 impossible things before breakfast, but what if you’re asked to do 20 impossible things, and then told if you don’t, you will basically lose your head? The other behavioral health person and I are glad the windows don’t open up here, because between this work stuff and the wind, its enough to make a person want to drop something heavy out the window to relieve stress, preferably not the actual person.

I will listen to Dr. Horrible. I will do the best I can. But I’m reminded that Penny, who tried to do her best, was the one that got killed in the end.

Dr. Horrible’s Sing Along Blog is one of the finest things in creation.

I have watched it multiple times, and it has not ceased to be funny. In fact, it becomes exponentially more funny each time I watch it.

It makes me very happy to listen to it at work. My co-worker pays no attention to the words, she just likes the tunes.

If you don’t like this show, then you need your head examined. Go watch it!

So, yesterday morning I booked an emergency appointment to see the naturopath, because even though I am on the Candida Diet, and taking yeast killers, and doing a total detox at the same time, my skin is freaking out and I itch everywhere.

So. While I was there, not only did I get some homeopathic histamine, I also got a lipotropic complex to help out on the cleanse. AND, the most amazing thing of all, was introduction to a fabulous weight loss program.

The program is called hCG weight loss therapy. It’s based on the idea that the extra pounds are not necessarily due to eating badly or not exercising, but due to the metabolism being out of whack. The fat cells then store up mainly due to stress, and then they also store hormones, which can get you further out of whack. And this is the weight that just doesn’t go away no matter what you do. The belly especially carries most of this weight.

So, you get a daily injection and/or nasal spray that will cause your body to burn fat, about 1200-2000 calories per day, and you eat 500 in food. You don’t get hungry, because your body is using the “food” part of those fat cells, and you’re flushing everything else out of your system. FREAKING AWESOME. This program is recommended for people who have no explanation for weight gain, or despite diet and exercise, maintain the same weight and/or continue to gain. I will update on how this turns out, but I’m REALLY excited about it. The cost is very reasonable as well.

I love going to see the Naturopath. I have nothing against Western medicine, but I can honestly say that the have done more for me in 4 visits than regular doctors have done for me in 10 years. If you have any persistent problems with health, even if they are subtle, I highly recommend a visit to one! Now THAT’S something I wish health insurance would pay for. They get results!

It used to be that if the doctor didn’t cure you, or improve you, they didn’t get paid, but was in the old days.